Prayer

“I will pray for you”

What does that mean? I recently went through an overwhelming situation and asked for friends and family to pray for me. As the situation didn’t change some of these people changed their words to “thinking of you” Other responses were “God is in control” .

My experience with prayer is that it is a lot of work. so when I ask people to pray, I am asking them to sacrifice their time and their energy. I believe God hears every prayer, but sometimes He doesn’t always answer as quick as I would be comfortable with. He always answers in a way that reveals more of His character and in a way that reflects more of what I struggle with in all my relationships.

As I raise my teenage daughters, I am learning how stay close to them while letting them stretch their wings. This is a dance that I don’t always get right. A few weeks ago, my daughter and I had a rather heated discussion. It felt awful to experience the wall between her and I. As I poured out my heart to God in prayer, I was asking Him to hold me and to reveal His love to me. After a few minutes of intensive begging, my heart was opened and I saw that God sent His Son to earth to prove His love for me. I went to my daughter and even though she wasn’t ready to receive my love, I gave her a hug and told her I love her. It took awhile for her to soften toward me but after a few days our relationship was better than ever.

When I started this blog, it was to highlight God moments. I believe God is always on the move and we miss a lot of His involvement on this earth. So if God is always moving why does He ask me to pray. I pray because I have a relationship with God through His Son Jesus Christ. Just like any relationship, the more time I spend with Jesus, the deeper my relationship with Him. It is in the security of this relationship that I find strength and wisdom to deal with life on this earth. He is totally okay if I test His promises of love and provision. I know He wants to give me the desires of my heart as He promises in Psalms 37:4.

Be delighted with the Lord. Then he will give you all your heart’s desires.

So when I don’t see the answer to my prayer as quickly as I would like, I have the assurance that my relationship with God is built on trust and love. I know that nothing can separate me from the love of my Creator and when I am in an situation that is uncontrollable, I have the confidence in a  God who is in control. As I journey on the path of life, I want to keep praying and asking others to pray for me, because my relationship with others and with God is strengthened through the sacrifice.

Waves

But soon a terrible storm arose. High waves began to break into the boat until it was nearly full of water and about to sink. Jesus was asleep at the back of the boat with his head on a cushion. Mark 4:37-38.

Sometimes I feel like the disciples in the boat. Jesus is asleep and my life is falling apart. Every time I think I am getting ahead a big wave splashes over the side of the boat and threatens to capsize me.

As a single parent raising two beautiful teenage daughters, there are many opportunities for my boat to become capsized. Life is no longer as simple as calling a babysitter to watch over my girls when I am away. Now I battle against the messages sent from social media, peer pressure and the movie industry. I have to trust them to make wise decisions and take care of themselves. This is very hard for me, but a necessary part of their development.

When I worked in Northern Manitoba, I was given the privilege of going out in one of the little fishing boats. As we headed past the shelter of the river and onto Lake Manitoba, the waves got bigger and bigger. Soon the boat was tossing and bouncing over huge waves and the water splashed over the edge as the  front of the boat hit wave after wave. We covered ourselves under a tarp and only peeked out when the water stopped hitting us. As we headed into wave after wave leaving the safety of any land far behind us, I had to trust the driver to steer the boat. After a while, we came to a little island in the middle of the lake. As we neared the shore, the waves washed the boat onto the beach and we spent a beautiful afternoon picnicking and laying in the sun. If I had not got into the boat and trusted the driver to get us to our destination without capsizing, I would never have experienced the solitude and peace found on that little island.

Jesus is asking me to get in the boat and to trust Him to steer through the storm. I know He can do it because He has proven himself to me over and over again. Sometimes in the midst of the storm, I forget to lay down beside the sleeping Jesus and trust Him to calm the storm or to hold me in the midst of it. Then a song will come on the christian radio station or I will read the encouraging words of a friend or a passage from the Bible will speak loudly to me and I will remember, it is only when I get in the boat that I can experience the beauty waiting on the other side of the waves.