But soon a terrible storm arose. High waves began to break into the boat until it was nearly full of water and about to sink. Jesus was asleep at the back of the boat with his head on a cushion. Mark 4:37-38.
Sometimes I feel like the disciples in the boat. Jesus is asleep and my life is falling apart. Every time I think I am getting ahead a big wave splashes over the side of the boat and threatens to capsize me.
As a single parent raising two beautiful teenage daughters, there are many opportunities for my boat to become capsized. Life is no longer as simple as calling a babysitter to watch over my girls when I am away. Now I battle against the messages sent from social media, peer pressure and the movie industry. I have to trust them to make wise decisions and take care of themselves. This is very hard for me, but a necessary part of their development.
When I worked in Northern Manitoba, I was given the privilege of going out in one of the little fishing boats. As we headed past the shelter of the river and onto Lake Manitoba, the waves got bigger and bigger. Soon the boat was tossing and bouncing over huge waves and the water splashed over the edge as the front of the boat hit wave after wave. We covered ourselves under a tarp and only peeked out when the water stopped hitting us. As we headed into wave after wave leaving the safety of any land far behind us, I had to trust the driver to steer the boat. After a while, we came to a little island in the middle of the lake. As we neared the shore, the waves washed the boat onto the beach and we spent a beautiful afternoon picnicking and laying in the sun. If I had not got into the boat and trusted the driver to get us to our destination without capsizing, I would never have experienced the solitude and peace found on that little island.
Jesus is asking me to get in the boat and to trust Him to steer through the storm. I know He can do it because He has proven himself to me over and over again. Sometimes in the midst of the storm, I forget to lay down beside the sleeping Jesus and trust Him to calm the storm or to hold me in the midst of it. Then a song will come on the christian radio station or I will read the encouraging words of a friend or a passage from the Bible will speak loudly to me and I will remember, it is only when I get in the boat that I can experience the beauty waiting on the other side of the waves.